Friday, May 15, 2009
Starring on the dark night sky hoping that it will knock me to my senses, because this boredom is eating my 9 lives.. boredom may actually be worse than death..
days rush like hours, our daily routine repeating every single day.. i guess others found it good but with emotionless fiends like myself its a drag..
i wake up every single day.. i don't feel happy, yet i don't feel bad... its not that i'm complaining, its just i was just wondering what it feels like.. to feel happy.. i don't know why but well i guess i'm just curious.. or perhaps a little bit of jealous..knowing that people are that free to move around.. my seclusion is needed because of my current status because were.. different... but still these chains are rusted and i want to break free from them, i just don't know how.. i just wanted to feel... even just once..
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Monday, March 30, 2009
The world is full of surprises... it never cease to amaze me how something good turns bad in a blink of an eye.. well it also happened before but damn.. i always thought our class would stick together until we graduate.. i guess I'm just lucky, i should be happy but even if I'm a selfish and egocentric person, it sorta feels bad that my friends are being left behind... so i guess i should stop advancing more subjects.. it feels good to be on a place higher than others once in a while, but i guess abandoning friends that makes me worse than trash.. to overcome the wall and help it overcome itself, guess that would make a new goal??
well after that its on to my plan of making pampanga 3 times better than manila!! hahaha seriously manila's good but for my opinion, its way too overrated...
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Friday, March 20, 2009
They may not know it but the past few weeks were very hard on me... very very hard.. but who cares exams sucks, third year mayhem has taught me how to go straight to the exams without reviewing hehehe... happens all the time with the pressure on.. totally messed up with filipino as always.. math goes with unity!!! nyahaha well engineering maths are hell and we do'nt really need them in our proffession, it's chow and jad's problem to solve those not us.. duh!! hope i don't fail any damn subjects this sem.. being advance and all, its a bit to tiresome... no time for persona and devil may cry 4... waaaaa i'll take a break in the summer... only ojt please... just a little bit more and this sem will be over... kinda sad but fun, then the sidelines starts now!!!! i won't slack off anymore (well maybe just a little..) but the future is calling... we move on!!! charge!!!!!
An Engineer kept on complaining why we are not that good in math, then i realized that he's only talent was math (LOSER!!! ;p) sucks to be him... I have no grudges on engineers, well only to him hahaha
p.s. Some of the details on my portfolio (pictures on top) were taken from some other websites but most works are done by me and my groupmates.. haha
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Sunday, March 01, 2009
Been a nocturnal being lately,. so many things have changed since the last time i started posting here, kinda feels like... uhm... special? special to have these bullshits going for the past 3 years.. or maybe ungoing.. doesn't matter. dont really care if nobody gives a damn to this site, it just feels good to babble some nonesense for time to time...
these few months, i feel like i have matured.. even if its self-compliment i'm really glad.. since the time we entered the field of Architecture, that time i don't even know its effing definition, hell can't even spell it right on the entrance exam i took.. now i've been reading alot of its magazines... helped work at the stupid class project (well maybe not that much there..), we even made the rolling parol for it and until now i still dont have the slightest clues on the connection with parol&buildings.
''When you give up to yourself, you give up the whole world" what foolish nonesense that has indeed knocked me back to reality,. thoughout these years i met alot of strangers, felt with them grew with them, its kind of cool that some people look up to you when they themseves are in a higher level, kinda makes me want to surpass everyone of them. they don't know me yet they trust me. why can't i trust myself a little bit more?
After that i tried connecting fragments of my shaterred dream, the goal is still as always: WORLD DOMINATION. same goal but i found a lighter meaning to the hatred in it. our world is dying, i wont sit back and take advantage of it. our generation is near, the legacy of our fallen ancestors as well as our love ones depends on how we change it. and i would not want to be a damn kid forever... i'll work hard... starting with my portfolio i guess... haha a stupid way to end a post, well whatever
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Thursday, July 10, 2008
Tick tock... its 12:16 am and i'm here in my room... there are 4 tracing papers in my drafting table, around 6-8 pieces of A3 paper in my drafting board... most of them have my rough sketches of things i need to finish... i have so much to do and yet I do not know how to start...
Never knew it was this hard, Its taking away my sleep, my PSP, my meals, Internet.. my work is slowly taking everything away... yet somehow I'm happy, Exploring the infinite possibilities of how to create some freakin' structures out of the paper... in a way, its fun... the only thing i hate is this damn esemech(Engineering Mechanics DAMN MATH!!) oh and Filkom, WHY DO WE NEED TO STUDY FILIPINO???!! hay... nonetheless its ok..
12:27 now, still need to finish my work.. wish me luck...
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Summer is about to end and my drawing skills are still in the level of a newbie (especially the water color rendering part.. isang maling stroke lang, patay na!) haha... At least I've advanced 3 minor subjects, fixed the nds emulator and... uhmm... nothing else haha sigh.. miss the good ol' days... well, back to work. I need to improve a lot more since I'm gonna be a third year now huhuhu...
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catastrophe strikes again, it seems that every once in a while, the earth is starting to take its revenge... I just feel bad about those people who died not really knowing their worth nor their purpose.. Death is really bias sometimes... but so is life I suppose... I hope that those people will find their way to paradise even though in reality there is none...
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
One becomes a hero, one wanders the land He begins a life of seclusion with her He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Loveless
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
The infinite mystery
The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek
But their fates are scattered by war
And the last is taken prisoner
To seek the answer together, once again
Though the prisoner escapes, he is gravely wounded
His life is saved, however
By a woman of the opposing nation
Which seems to hold the promise of eternal bliss
Of not fulfilling the oath to his friends
As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction
The prisoner departs with his newfound love
And embarks on a new journey
And the oath that he swore to his friends
In their hearts they know they will meet again
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice
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Deleted most of the trash here.. Those memories which I hold dear to me are no more, here lies my eternal nothingness
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